Even if and even when...

Even if and even when,
If it ever happens then.

It is now that counts,
I'll be loving you the same amount.

Is that what they want me to do?
To stop loving you?

I'd forget me, myself and I,
They gonna have to kill me, I'm gonna have to die.

Don't ask me not to cry, don't ask me not to shed a tear,
Yes. I am living in denial, I am living in fear.

Know this, apart of me you'll never be.
Even if I'm left alone, right here you'll stay and be.

I'm an adult!

4 years ago my mom and I were walking in jam3iyat bayan, my mom took me out of school cuz i was feeling "sick. so she took me to the jam3iya to buy fa6ayer (they're yummy btw).. so i dunno what brought it up bas this is what i remember from it...

Mom: lazm tet7amelain il mas2olia, bacher itha yolich 3yaal shlon tet3amelain weyahom??

Me: waaaaiih!! yuma taw il nas ! lama aseer 21 akon gad il mas2olia!

Mom: ee mabuga shay 3ala matakmeleen 21!

Me: ola bagii 4 years!

Mom: 4 sneen itmur ib qamthat 3ain.. oo golay ma giltlich oo tethakeray hal 7achii...

ok.. mo qamthat 3ain .. bas il 7achi chena kan gabel cham shahar!! oo bacher baseer 21 sina! o 7adi am freaking out.. oo let me tell u why !


1. i cant act like a kid anymore, i have to act like a grownup ! :s

2. lazem at7amal mas2olia 3an ahali now ! i shud start acting like a grown up !

3. what have i accomplished? :s

so ive decided to make something every day to make my parents proud! so ppl am spreading a virus! or what the blog world calls it a tag!!

MAKE UR PARENTS PROUD OF U TODAY!!

MAKE UR PARENTS PROUD I TELL U!!! and then brag about it on ur blog!! oo this is highly contagious! im making my parents proud tommorrow dunno how.. but i will !!!

anyway happy bday to me ;p and hope u likey! tata ;**

Back again ?

HEeey ppl!! am back again ! ;p sorry about that!! bas here are the updates!!

* 3eed was great! i had a blast actually ;p BAS maya36ooni 3ayadi 3alabuna i have a part time job!!! :( 7aram 3alaikom !!!!

* i went to khiran , on my way there wesalt il 7dood, yes... when i took a u-turn kan maktoob
"اهلا بكم بدولة الكويت" ...

* turns out am good at bowling!!! awal mara i played bowling 3 kids beat my score, but the THIRD TIME I PLAYED !!! i kicked arse!! ;p yeah baby;p i was actually the secong highest score;p ana oo my friend terahana ili gets a lower score ya3zem il thani 3ala maki;p and it was YUMMY!!

* oo btw il 5iran sayer wayed 7ilo soob il ba7ar very nice very family oriented, loved it.. u shud go there.. i know 3agad, bs its the only place u get to be one and its ok! :P

*lastly after il 5iran istamratht :( s5oona oo il 7ala 7ala bas am better now... so yaaaay !!! ;p i missed u ppl!!!

hope u likey oo tataa;***

عيدكم مبارك!! و كل عام وأنتم بخير

3eedkum mbarak ya jema3t il 5air o 3sakom min il 3aydeen wel fayzeeen dom!!

Tadroon shno a7ib il 3eed!! and no not bcoz of il 3ayadiii!! its bcoz i see everyone in one day !! oo il kuwait kilha bil showare3 wetshofoon il kash5eer oo ili i5imoon 3al isharat wagfeen na6reen 3ayadii;p FUN!! anyway enjoy ur 3eed ppl!! oo have fun!! am sure i'm guna have fun, baro7 il 5iran!! :D wohooo!! hope u likey, oo tataaaaa;****

BARKOOLI!! al7een agolokom laish ;p

Yesterday night, around 8, i was at work, my brother calls...

Bro: ha wainich??

Me: Dawam laish?

Bro: meta te6li3een?

Me: at 10...?

Bro: ok ana baroo7 computer city u wanna come?

Me: EEEEEE!! abi ashof laptops yedad lana my laptop athgal mini oo almost as old as i am oo ilawe3 il chabd!!

Bro: hehe ok call me lama u finish ook...

6ab3an ana what i had in mind ina am just gonna go look at laptops, put one in mind oo after 3eed aye ashteri wa7ed...


At computer city:

Bro: ha shno 3jebech...

Me: well ana me7tara bain il toshiba wel acer...

The guy that works there "3adel": he told us stuff that i didnt understand bs my brother seemed to understand so.. i looked at my brother and said..

Me: ya3ni shno? ayho a7san al7een...

Me looking like an idiot :P oo they both laugh .. oo apparently il toshiba one a7san AND did i mention CUTE!!! yes the laptop... not 3adil... or was he yasser? :s ANYWAY!!


Bro: so cham 3indich be7sabich now...

Me: (thinking u had to ask?) ummm dinar oo shay :D

Bro: 3afya 3al sha6ra.. wat about ur savings...

Me: not so much :P

Bro: 3indich *** dinar?

Me: ee..

Bro: u know what.. (talking to 3adel/yasser) were guna take it..

ana hneeeeeeeee magedart asadig!!! i wanted to hug him bas kila ppl all around us!! anywaaay isnt my bro the best!!? ;p i loove him tif tif tif mashala!! fe a7ad 3inda o5o chethi !? :P

fa yeah barkooli i FINALLY got a new laptop i could actually put on my lap and dont get burn marks OR! is too heavy to carry anywhere:P

and thats my new laptop, bs besej shakla asghar :s anyway !! im in love ;p !! hope u likey!! ;p tata ;**

HEROES IS BACK ON!!

Tara hal mosalsal 3ajeeeeeeb!! oo its back on !! so yaaay for meeeeeee!! ;p wala u guys have to watch it !!

Guess Whoz Back?!

Guess whoz back .. tananaa(8) lulu is baack tananaaaaaa! guess whos back ? guess whos back ? guess whos back? tanananaaaaa yo yo yo yo.. ok thats enuff ;p

Heeeey everybody ! i missed u all ! hope u missed me toooo!!!

anyywayyyyy lemme tell u wat u guys missed..

#1: jam3a started, and it sucked (more details on why later)

#2: i got sick am still recovering

#3: well rmethaan and family time

#4:my ijaza for work finished..

#5: im in love with mosalsal 3antara!!! (more details soon)

#6: baitna sayer 7athana ;p we have 3 babies in da house!! (no not mine) smilla 3alaihom ;**

#7: finally... i refreshed my brain to spill on this page...


Anywaaay ! lemme tell u why jam3a sucks!! well first thing first i couldn't register any subjects! so bil zooooooooor i found some which are literature, varieties of writing, linguistics, translation, and french!!

soo my problem was.. French! I've been running around KU for almost a week to transfer from one class to another... FOR A WEEK! just to find where the god for saken french department is!! so when i found that department it was haunted!! so when i felt completely lost and helpless and weak i broke down into tears on the stairway, with people walking around... (btw imagine this...ME: sick, runny nose, cud barely breath, 12 pm, 7aar!!!, sayma, soar throat) so i called some people to get the french department number! and when i did, at first i got the OK to transfer to the class i wanted, the next day they just happen to decide they CHANGED THEIR MIND!!! stupid @#)$@(*$ #@$@$#(* people! so now i have to drop that stupid subject ! and i cant minor in french until NEXT COURSE!!

soo on to more pleasant details.. yes yes.. does any one here ishoof 3antara?! i7i6ona at 4 ib qanat likuwait !! tara 7ada amazing!! not necessarily the painted faces 3alabuna black people bas, the fact ina 7a6een so many stories in this musalsal oo so many famouse people, like il sa3aleeek oo qabayel oo 7a6een 3an cham battle.. ! its amazing! if u ppl like history u shud watch it !! 7ata lo its too late ! WATCH IT! sorry am quite angry ...

anyway am glad am back ppl! ola is this the longest post ? tata ;*!